A story of my 10 years life existence in the Kingdom of Bahrain

A perfect journey is what I needed in order to write a perfect story of my life. I always dreamed of writing a book base on reality specifically about someone’s life story that could inspired other people. I just found myself typing and learning that I have a talent of writing and I wasn’t convince until I put it into writing. I have read stories and watched a lot of stories that someone could write their life story based on a day to day life experience. I’m an editor of my own’s story. I just wanted to start writing and this is the best start of the year to chase the most awaited part and highlight of my life. At 32, I could finally start doing it. So, others can do the same. It is never too late to be inspired and put in writing whatever you think matters in life which is to learn and do what you love to do. I’m an Overseas Filipino Worker (OFW) living in the Kingdom of Bahrain for 10 years now. Trying to make living away from my daughter whom I left since she was 1 month old and that was 12 years ago. Despite of my past being a mom at a very young age, I tried to be the best mother I could. I decided to write my own story because I wanted my daughter will read it.I may be away from her working hard away from home and it was never easy dealing with the home sickness. Yes, I’m a mom who is living away from home and missing every single moment of my one and only daughter’s life. Missing every year ,her graduation and birthdays. I’ve always wanted to be home whenever there is important occasion due to work schedule. I couldn’t do it. It wasn’t my choice at all. The struggle is real and wasn’t easy and all you can do is reaching your family back home through social media. But, it wasn’t enough, the physical attachment is very important and all you can do is cry at night whenever you miss them so much. Life is hard but you’ve got to be strong and nothing else you can do but just to live your everyday life . Each year you become stronger because you don’t have a choice but to be tough as you can be. I ain’t a writer but I had the experienced being a feature writer back in high school days. Due to busy life, being a hard working mother. I forget the skills in writing. Today, I felt like doing it and I believed my life story can inspire a lot of single mother out there. They shouldn’t stop doing things they liked and life is short and one day, they can look back and find themselves happy and be blessed to be able to share that being a writer is really in our heart. I wanted my write ups to be in my own personal blogs which existed for years and it was just empty. I don’t even know what to write in it and all I did was start doing it. I should start getting true and real by writing my personal life story. It is the best thing to do on my free time. Something that I really wanted long time ago.

What really single parenting means, it is a sacrifice and most mom do hard work just for their child. She even forgetten herself at times. All, she wanted to do is to give her child a better life that she deserved. Sometimes,she needed to show and took selfies in her social media so her family back home won’t worry so much about her well being. In reality, they’ve felt sadness too and when they are alone at night. The smile turned to tears in silence. Somehow, our family didn’t know about it. Personally, I experienced it. I’ve got to smile a lot in all my post in my social media.Trying to live a life that is fun and convincing but honestly, home sickness is hard to deal with. You’ve got to be strong in every aspects of your life. You have no choice but to beat that sadness because your health is very important to keep going. I just wanted to make my story to be as short as it is. At 20, I just newly graduated in nursing. I left my hometown in Mindanao (Ozamiz) and stayed in Manila which for 9 months. I was young and became a mom which wasn’t planned. I runway from home and gave birth alone away from my town just to avoid gossip and drama, basically I’ve experienced the life of being on labor at 3pm and gave birth at 10pm and checked out the next day at 6pm in a Lying Inn clinic back in Batasan Hills, QC Manila. Giving birth alone wasn’t a joke and until now I have no idea how I’ve made it. After a month, I came back with a baby and my relatives were in depth shocked how I became pregnant when they’ve never seen me at all. Of course, I was hiding far away home. I’ve got a post- depression after my birth, luckily I was able to get a job as a call center agent and worked there for a year and flew to Bahrain without seeing my baby girl before I flew to Bahrain. It was only then after 2 years and 9 months that I had seen her again. She didn’t know me at all. She called me Aunt or tita and I’ve struggle a lot of letting her know that I am her mom. Thanks to the social media that helped me getting attached to her whenever I had the chance to talk to her and to my family who kept reminding her that I am her mom working away home. She eventually figured it out. Apart from being away home, I’ve realized my daughter is just my baby girl. She knew her grandmother well more than her own mother. I felt sorry because I couldn’t be there most of her days since she was young. I’ve missed her childhood days which a parent should be there. My kid is lucky to have a grandparents that made her life felt loved. Despite, her parents weren’t beside her due to unavoidable circumstances . Life is cruel sometimes. But, my daughter is strong to understand it all. She had grown up very smart and understanding and thanks to my parent’s guidance. I owe them a lot. Supporting your child isn’t enough, she missed you physically. As a mom,I knew my baby wanted to be hugged as much as often as she needed. If I could turned back the time, I wished I had never left her but I had no choice. I had to do it for her future. One day, I hope she would understand me and that all my sacrifice is for her . I wish that I wouldn’t miss her teenage life. I wish that I could be there beside her. I wish that she could be closer to me. I dreamed of that waking up in the morning, making her favorite breakfast and pack her lunch to school and cooking for her dinner. I wish, I could do that sooner. Time flies, I ain’t getting any younger. She is just my one and only child. The things I wanna say ” I will be always here for you my one and only baby girl”. I apologized for all those time, I wasn’t there when you mostly needed me as your mother. A Heartbreaking story of a mother who has nothing to do but to give her child the best that she can. One day, in the near future we will be together soon. I will be the happiest mom ever.

As time goes by, I am living my life and I had met people in my life that made me stronger even more. I thank them for making my life so meaningful and helped me get through with the loneliness. With all my life’s ups and down. I realized that family and friends are important. I kept those people who care for me and trying to hold them tight as much as I can. I wanted to show the love that I should be given to my family while working away home. I am lucky to find and met people whom I can consider family in this Kingdom. Life is even better when they’re around me and helped me lift my soul through the darkest time and that being away home is just temporary. We can always see them on our vacation.